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Some things happen in life that consume everything else. Sometimes it isn't even your life. You can do everything right, have everything in its proper place. Things can still happen. Because, no matter how hard you try, there are over seven billion other lives on this planet and every single one affects your existence. For the most part, you're ignorant to their influence, and get to go about your business with some amount of control. Then, there are the times those lives smack you right in the face. Everything crumbles. You fall. You bleed. And you never gave a reason for it to happen.

Bad things happen to good people, and bad people get what's coming to them. But what about the innocent bystanders. While Superman and Zod are duking it out in the skies overhead, what about the people who get buried in the buildings? When cops chase a suspect through the streets, what happens to the family whose building the suspect smashes into?

I didn't get buried by a building or my home destroyed by some stray car. I'm just an innocent bystander in someone else's movie.

It's taken two months for me to get to a place of sanity again. Well, my level of sanity. There are people I disappeared from, friends I stopped talking to, projects I abandoned. I have my excuses, my reasons, all that lovely nonsense. I still feel like a right schmuck.

It's taken the patience and gentle prodding of friends like Saora :icongina-sadiren: and Kenny :iconkennygordon: to return me to a place where I can create again. I owe them a lot. I was horrified when I realized I couldn't write. I'd sit and stare at a screen or even a pad of paper for hours and come up with nothing. Not even a sentence. I've had writer's block before but this...this was different. The events beyond my control had consumed me to a point I'd never found before, and one I hope to God I never find again. It was terrifying.

I owe Saora an apology for suddenly dropping off the face of the earth, abandoning her story, frightening her.

I owe Kenny a mountain of thanks for acting like my disappearance never happened and randomly handing me an opportunity to work within an amazing new universe I'd never seen before.

She reminded me that people care about me.

He reminded me that if I can still breathe I can still create.

Saora's Benediction: Icecrown Citadel will resume its Monday updates. By the time it has been completed, I hope another project has fallen into my lap. If not, I'll just have to create one.
  • Listening to: While - Deadmau5
  • Reading: Bradbury Speaks - Ray Bradbury
  • Watching: Misfits
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KennyGordon Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014   General Artist
Trust me, I've been there. I'm actually there right now, but it's one of those states that can keep you forever stagnant... if you allow it. Time to move on to bigger and better things, lady. All this stress and bullshit isn't the only thing down the pipeline. There's loads of good things---mounds of it. It will be a fight to access, but it's there. I hope the balance tips in your favor because the world would suck donkey-ass if you weren't writing and creating. Donkey-ass is redundant, I know... but that's beside the point! 

When you're down in the dumps, I can imagine the energy of the planet draining immensely. Every time life kicks you in the metaphoricals, we're that much closer to destruction. If I had my way, any interference with your craft would be a criminal act---a violation of human rights. You would be a protocol in the Geneva Conventions. We would have to change it to "Jenneva Conventions" because... why the fuck not? Branding is important.  

Stagnant Jenn® (blank word processor sold separately) is just bad for business. I mean, she's a collector's item, but that's only due to her being so rare. Just so we're clear, I can't sell Stagnant Jenn® on eBay unless her cheerlessness is as rare as a new starring role for Sean Connery.  We don't need Stagnant Jenn® popping up as frequent as Nicholas Cage, straight to DVD 'n shit. We need Writer Mode Jenn®

By all means, keep to your writing and crafting. Why? 

Planet fuckin' Earth, that's why!  Earth 
ChildOfDumas Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2014  Student Writer
That is easily the best thing I've read this year. I may have to print it onto a poster and hang it above my work area next to the Batman pointing his finger at me, saying "Quit Procrastinating!"

Keep being you, Kenny. Planet fuckin' Earth wouldn't be near as much fun if you didn't :giggle:

Trianya Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're right that such things can come out of nowhere. Hopefully things are looking better now and normal life can resume. Writing block can be the worst, especially when it is such a useful escape from day to day life. Hopefully everything picks back up into place now :) Best of Luck
ChildOfDumas Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2014  Student Writer
Thanks :w00t: Best of luck to you as well!
Gina-Sadiren Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014
As I just said in my text messages to ya. There is no need to apologize for anything hun, and I never want you to feel like you owe me anything! :hug: Your friends will always be there for you if you ever need anything. Whether it's for venting frustrations, or spending hours playing games together. Our friendship means more to me then anything else in the world and I wouldn't trade that in for anything. I meant it when I said you're one of my best friends ever.
ChildOfDumas Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014  Student Writer
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